Begin of 2021
and I’m unusually lacking the “New Yr, New Me!” social media bombardment.
This appears a
displaced begin to the brand new 12 months.
come from 2020 and we’re nonetheless going by way of the upheaval of Covid in our lives
it actually isn’t a shock.
It seems like we’ve
inadvertently dragged 2020 into 2021.
I am surprisingly
fairly joyful the brand new 12 months has began.
I’m not one for
“new 12 months, new me” stuff. I’ve at all times been one who simply carries on with the circulation.
It’s, in spite of everything, simply one other day, of one other month into one other 12 months.
However I want this
12 months to be completely different.
I’m not speaking
Covid life is
going to be round for some time. Our lives are going to be interchanging and interconnected
to covid information till no less than the summer time.
My perspective nevertheless
I’m a fighter.
I’ll tackle and battle any impediment that comes my approach. It retains me going.
Final 12 months began
had come off the again of a hellish 2019. We fought in opposition to wrongful accusations,
in opposition to injustice and inappropriate behaviour. We fought the system and we received.
It took us to hell and again however we did it.
We then began
the 12 months preventing for the kids and entry preparations; a consequence of the
earlier years difficulties. As soon as once more, we received.
We then began
a battle in opposition to inaccessibility domestically. We took to alter our Excessive Avenue for the
higher. We began that battle and we achieved a lot till Covid stopped us.
We then had
4 youngsters with advanced and interchanging particular academic wants at dwelling.
As above I used to be
superb. I relished within the battle.
wasn’t actually a battle. I used to be in my ingredient and I simply did my “instructor factor” and
I genuinely imagine that all of us thrived in it.
Then all of us adjusted
to covid life put up lockdown. There wasn’t actually a battle wanted. So I finished.
individuals round me obtain wonderful issues throughout and past lockdown. Some began
new companies, others took on dwelling schooling after weeks of tears and frustration
and a few have taken up new hobbies or made outdated hobbies thrive.
I didn’t. I simply
Previous to lockdown
I signed again as much as Genes Reunited to hold on my outdated household tree and family tree
analysis. I’m a part of a Kitney Fb group and after 4 years of inactivity it
turned lively once more. So I signed up with the intent to start out once more.
Nope. I did it
after I was requested a query within the group however didn’t go into it any additional.
actively requested for artwork gear final Christmas so I may stick with it and give attention to
my paintings. Lockdown ought to have supplied me with the time, alternative and motion
to create extra.
No. I solely created
2 items of artwork final 12 months; one was accomplished earlier than lockdown and the opposite a number of weeks
I had plans to
learn extra books, to write down extra weblog posts right here, to start out a brand new weblog and get again
to writing about religion and faith and had plans to be extra lively and inventive
within the backyard.
I didn’t do any
of it. I finished. I wasn’t combating lockdown, children being dwelling or the concern
of being contaminated. I simply stopped.
That isn’t me.
In fact, there
are many optimistic issues that I did do.
I began working
for our church on their social media accounts in addition to creating a number of interactive
actions for our church group to do throughout lockdown. I used to be holding a Zoom
Quiz evening as soon as a month which was actually enjoyable for household and mates. I managed to
hearken to round 40 audio books (is that this sacrilege in opposition to precise books?) Oh and
I bought fats. Which isn’t essentially a foul factor because the meals was at all times nice.
The church associated
actions have been good as a result of they helped a technology who’re laptop illiterate
to really have “church” in a time once they would have in any other case missed out.
of that I don’t assume I’ve accomplished greater than survive day after day. I do know for a lot of that
might be an achievement in itself and I don’t need to take away from these individuals however
for me, it isn’t lots.
I normally really feel
like I can share a weblog put up of my artwork for the 12 months, what we’ve accomplished exercise smart,
how the kids have progressed on XYZ or what I’ve personally achieved however I can’t
this 12 months.
It actually bothers
me. I COULD have accomplished a lot extra.
isn’t a “New Yr, New Me” put up that is positively a put up that makes me extra
accountable to what I do going forwards.
Does anybody else
really feel the identical? Really feel such as you need to obtain extra this coming 12 months than final?